Tantric Masturbation
My beautiful and adored mentoress informed me that the lesson of the day was Tantric self-pleasuring. I was very excited for several reasons. I have long understood the importance of masturbation, and devotedly engage in solo sex at least once every day. Our first lover is ourself. Learning to be a passionate, attentive, skilful erotic virtuoso begins with the lovemaking our hands make with our own bodies. We learn “bad” habits though, rushing through our pleasure too quickly. Rushing for the goal of orgasm without cherishing the delicious sensuality of the process. Neglecting to climb the erotic ladder step by step, as enthralled with each moment of the process, since our focus is away from the now and on the anticipated climax to come. My mentoress was going to teach me better.
Also I love being watched. A thorough-going exhibitionist, I thrill to be exposed, displayed, the focus of erotic arousal. I love watching too–being a voyeur and an exhibitionist are not mutually exclusive. But from very young I never wanted to hide behind my clothes, and even now I take every moment I can to be nude. I have to admit, it’s a special delight to be naked when no one else is, a situation I’ve enjoyed a few times, but not nearly often enough. Of course, everyone nude together is also fun. Make no mistake there!
And specifically, masturbating for someone else is an enormous pleasure that we do not experience often enough. This is natural, because when people have a chance to share intimate times together, mutual pleasuring is the order of the day. But making a special moment for one to give such a special gift to the other of inviting them into one’s solo bed is a beautiful act of love. This can be mutual, simultaneous, or sequential–or all in one direction.
When have I typically done it? Receiving a massage is always arousing, and even when it is not a Tantric massage, a “happy ending” is more than welcome. Some therapists who may not wish to engage in this act themselves are very thoughtful and considerate in devoting a moment at the end for me to pleasure myself and remaining with me to witness the moment–and of course for me to focus on them as an object of desire. It can be a very satisfactory situation for all concerned, in those cases where the therapist is not comfortable touching my genitals. I recommend asking. Very few will say no, if you ask politely and with respect. Who doesn’t want to be adored?
And I have been commanded to masturbate when serving a dominant. I do like it, of course, when she has her way with my cock, but sometimes she has decided it was for me to do myself. One memorable occasion, a massage therapist I had been seeing–and incidently who neither had pleasured me nor had me self-pleasure for her–I hadn’t then learned to ask–revealed that she was dominant and also accepted service from a select few. That day I was one. At the end she had me on my knees and poured oil on my cock and told me I was going to masturbate. Then–wonderful surprise–she called her apartment mate in to watch, a stunning brunette that I had definitely also had the hots for. I did my best to “milk” the situation, and the two women watched me with glee. I never knew if they were “together,” but I hope they were so turned on that they made love to each other afterward. I admit I did fantasize about that several times afterward, repeating the self-pleasuring act.
In all our interaction I had never yet masturbated for my mentoress. I had adored her in other situations, certainly. And if fact, I simply adored her–still do! She is a beautiful woman, considerably older than me–by a generation, the perfect age gap for erotic mentoring. As if a friend of my mother’s had taken me under her wing. Celine is her name, and she is tall, slender, short blonde hair and sky blue eyes. She is one of those women who continues to have a killer body and face well into her sixties. Her perky breasts would be the envy of any woman in her twenties. Not extremely large but round and soft but firm, with eraser nipples. And she is wise. The wealth of sensual learning she has amassed since she took up this calling, already a mature woman, is simply phenomenal. You can tell she loves it, hungers for more knowledge and skill and dedicated to passing it on. She has boundless energy and a juggernaut of a libido! That is a woman.
And so that day, hearing that I was to masturbate “on stage” with her as my audience–to her instruction, was an immense turn on. Even better, she was going to begin with teaching by example–she was going to perform a Tantric self-pleasuring ritual for me.
In one corner of the room she had a platform of cushions, roughly the size of a bed, and square. On a table beside it several bottles of ointment, oil, lotion, fragrant and sensual delights. She also had a collection of silks and furs and feathers and such. Then there were phials of sweetness, fruit syrups, honey, chocolate. In real life, a Tantric masturbation session would have no time limit, but by intention can last well over an hour–or even all day if one wishes–a world away from the way I had played with myself most of my life. To masturbate for an hour? Sounded wonderful, but I needed to learn how. We did have a clock, however, a timer that would allot to each of us a mere forty-five minutes. It was a training session. And I should say that when performing for an audience I do trim my ritual down to a much shorter time, fifteen to twenty minutes. But when home alone… that is another matter.
The clock set, clad in a diaphanous and billowy shawl, she sat with her back against the wall and began by considering the various delights to the senses around her. She opened each container and breathed in the aroma. With her other hand she gently stroked her skin. When she found one that particularly delighted her she smoothed it on the skin of her arm or her leg, or circled it around one breast.
She dipped her finger into one of the sweet concoctions and sucked it off her finger tip. I was hard right from the beginning, but seeing her dip a nipple and lick the sweetness off send a jolt up my cock.
She began well away from her yoni, but as the minutes ticked by she circled closer and closer. Somewhere about midway, she touched the edges of her vagina for the first time. She did an expert yoni massage on herself, knowing just when to brush against her clit, when to circle the rim, when to plunge within. She brought herself to the initial stage of climax, the lower plateaus, and stopped there. Since she had gone first, and was about to be treated to an hot spectacle she reserved the finale for later.
Then it was my turn.
It had been hard to keep my hands off myself during her ritual, I was so aroused. And now that I was required to engage in self-pleasuring, I needed to pace myself as never before. I followed her example, settled myself in comfortably, and began indulging in the delights of all the senses though the oils, the goodies, and the various textures.
I chose a silk and let it float across my flesh. I plunged my face into its softness and let it brush across my lips. Then it fell down over my shoulders, down my back, and as I flipped forward onto my hands and knees, I draped it over my buttocks.
Next, with an ostrich feather I tickled my nipples, made them stand erect. I lightly brushed it across my lower erection too. Too bad I couldn’t lick my own nipples as Celine had. Better, I would have loved to lick something sweet off the tip of my cock. Some men can, but I’m not so limber unfortunately.
I opened a jar of cocoa butter and slathered this over my scrotum, working the unctuous, fragrant creme into its wrinkly skin, which had been well shaved for the occasion. I kept thinking how my chocolate balls would make a tasty treat for her mouth. The lady really knows how to suck the sac, and further south, as she’s performing fellatio (Something that would be good to learn), but that day was stictly me-on-me.
I did with my finger, though, what her tongue-tip might have done, gliding up and down and all around the valley between my legs with the ridge running between my balls and my ass. Then I circled my ass-hole with a lubricated finger tip. I teased my opening, on the verge of penetrating, but denying it the pleasure, for the moment.
But not forever. When I knew the time was right I started to fuck myself in the ass, shallow at first, then deeper, deeper, deeper.
When finally I touched my cock, and began a self-lingam massage, I was in a state of transport. That transcendent sense of oneness that Tantra creates between the participants, was vibrating within me. My chakras, I believe, must have been singing in harmony.
Even as a straight man, most of my erotic touch has been hand on cock–my cock of course, for masturbation is the most frequent and most foundational sex act. This is surely why some of the most intuitive and skilful work can be done by a man on another man’s cock, since he has so often worshipped his own. Not to say I don’t prefer the touch of a well-trained woman, as I definitely do. By that time, however, I had given lingam massages to dozens of men–fascinating the delightful variety of cocks, by the way–and so I was able to perform the ritual on myself.
I say I was in a state of oneness, but Celine was also in the bubble with me. And though I was focused on the sensations of my one body, I was aware that she had moved in close to me. She was masturbating too again, in rhythm with me, and as the delicious warmth spread all through my body, than quivering tenseness that heralds the arrival of ejaculation, we locked eyes. Our souls dove deep within one another’s inner being, and I loved and adored and cherished and worshiped Celine as my divine wand of light streamed forth an offering for her.
It was one of the most intense erotic moments I have known. It is the kind of experience I always try to achieve when performing for a client. Some reach the same space, others less so. Every time is unique.
Seline thanked me, and praised my performance. We went out to dinner that evening, and then back at her place, spent some time in bed. But that’s another story.
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